Hey guys, its been a really long time since I posted and today I'm gonna be talking about my view on seeing my friend's around me. Its about how i feel as i have been friends with them and seeing how they grow and change along the years. I don't know if any of my friends would read this but i hope they do even if its bad...
Anyways, not gonna state any names but its just that I've known my friends for so long and I see how they change and how their personality changes too. I always see them do the wrong things or see them heartbroken with anything and it really hurts me too. I get disappointed with what they do but i guess the fact is that I'm more disappointed in myself for seeing them do that and yet, i couldn't do anything to stop them. Sometimes i wonder if they became like that because of me? Maybe thats why I've been feeling guilty and feel that I need to be there for them to take care of them. I won't state what they did wrong but all i can say is that I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO OR SAY ANYMORE. But i know I'll never give up on them either, no matter what they do. Even if they get angry at me or anything, I'll still wanna be friends with them even if they might secretly hate me or anything. Honestly, I wish we could rewind time and just go back to being simple without having to deal with any complicated things. Why can't everything just be simple? Why can't people just say what they want to honestly and not think about all the possible bad outcomes there could be?
Do you have friends that you just feel disappointed in them and like, you feel like you can't face them? I'm sure everyone has those few friends they have known for years which change a lot. I just want you to know that if you ever feel that its your fault for what your friends have become, just TAKE A BREAK. I know that its hard cos you might feel helpless or anything but sometimes its something that is beyond what you can do. You can't control their life, in the end they are responsible for their own life. There's one thing that I realised through this whole process, its that you have to rmb that ITS THEIR LIFE! You may be part of their life but its them who would make their own choices in the end, NOT YOU. I'm still puzzled and scared of what might happen to my friends but all I know is that I'll be there for them whenever they need me. Even if it pains me to see them like that, I'll just have to endure cos its NOT MY LIFE. So don't be too hard on yourself or anything, don't constantly blame yourself cos of what your friends become, its not something that you can control. Just be there for them when they need you to and when they really realise the problem and start sharing it to you, be there to give them the right advice and your opinion on it.
We all face many different friendship problems we have with our friends and there are definitely times where we feel helpless and at a loss. But sometimes things may happen and its just something that we can't prevent, so before blaming yourself, just think that what has happened has already happened. No point dwelling on the past, just think about what YOU, YOURSELF can do for them. Even if its something that is very small, at least its still something. You never know, the smallest things could mean a lot to them. ;) I hope that you are able to tell them face to face instead of me. Whatever the problem you may have, I hope that it all works out for you in the end. :)
I know I usually don't even talk about my life on my blog because I really dun like to share my problems cos it seems like a huge burden. So the reason why I'm sharing this problem is because I can't seem to find anyone to say what my real reasons are for whatever actions or views that I have. I don't share this with my friends cos I don't want them to feel bad and pity me or anything, I really dislike people pitying me. So all i have is this blog which probably no one sees but at least its somewhere that i can let out some things. Thanks for reading~ ^^
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