Hey guys, its been a really long time since I posted and today I'm gonna be talking about my view on seeing my friend's around me. Its about how i feel as i have been friends with them and seeing how they grow and change along the years. I don't know if any of my friends would read this but i hope they do even if its bad...
Anyways, not gonna state any names but its just that I've known my friends for so long and I see how they change and how their personality changes too. I always see them do the wrong things or see them heartbroken with anything and it really hurts me too. I get disappointed with what they do but i guess the fact is that I'm more disappointed in myself for seeing them do that and yet, i couldn't do anything to stop them. Sometimes i wonder if they became like that because of me? Maybe thats why I've been feeling guilty and feel that I need to be there for them to take care of them. I won't state what they did wrong but all i can say is that I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO OR SAY ANYMORE. But i know I'll never give up on them either, no matter what they do. Even if they get angry at me or anything, I'll still wanna be friends with them even if they might secretly hate me or anything. Honestly, I wish we could rewind time and just go back to being simple without having to deal with any complicated things. Why can't everything just be simple? Why can't people just say what they want to honestly and not think about all the possible bad outcomes there could be?
Do you have friends that you just feel disappointed in them and like, you feel like you can't face them? I'm sure everyone has those few friends they have known for years which change a lot. I just want you to know that if you ever feel that its your fault for what your friends have become, just TAKE A BREAK. I know that its hard cos you might feel helpless or anything but sometimes its something that is beyond what you can do. You can't control their life, in the end they are responsible for their own life. There's one thing that I realised through this whole process, its that you have to rmb that ITS THEIR LIFE! You may be part of their life but its them who would make their own choices in the end, NOT YOU. I'm still puzzled and scared of what might happen to my friends but all I know is that I'll be there for them whenever they need me. Even if it pains me to see them like that, I'll just have to endure cos its NOT MY LIFE. So don't be too hard on yourself or anything, don't constantly blame yourself cos of what your friends become, its not something that you can control. Just be there for them when they need you to and when they really realise the problem and start sharing it to you, be there to give them the right advice and your opinion on it.
We all face many different friendship problems we have with our friends and there are definitely times where we feel helpless and at a loss. But sometimes things may happen and its just something that we can't prevent, so before blaming yourself, just think that what has happened has already happened. No point dwelling on the past, just think about what YOU, YOURSELF can do for them. Even if its something that is very small, at least its still something. You never know, the smallest things could mean a lot to them. ;) I hope that you are able to tell them face to face instead of me. Whatever the problem you may have, I hope that it all works out for you in the end. :)
I know I usually don't even talk about my life on my blog because I really dun like to share my problems cos it seems like a huge burden. So the reason why I'm sharing this problem is because I can't seem to find anyone to say what my real reasons are for whatever actions or views that I have. I don't share this with my friends cos I don't want them to feel bad and pity me or anything, I really dislike people pitying me. So all i have is this blog which probably no one sees but at least its somewhere that i can let out some things. Thanks for reading~ ^^
Sunday, November 10, 2013
Saturday, July 27, 2013
Its Okay to Be Afraid.
Hey guys, today I just wanna share with you guys that its okay to be afraid. I'm sure that many of you, or should i say EVERYONE OF YOU are afraid of something. Maybe its normal fears like, fear of animals or things or just someone. Or maybe it could be that your afraid of something that might happen? The fear I'm going to talk about today is the fear or something that is going to happen.
So... I'm sure some of you are afraid of something that might happen, be it losing someone, the problems that may grow or even 'yourself'. Your afraid to lose that important someone, that someone who you can rely on, the one whose important to you. Your afraid that the person will forget you one day, right? But let me tell you this, if that person really cares about you, you won't have to feel afraid, you wouldn't have to keep doing something to make sure your close to that person. Think about it, if that person really cares for you, you wouldn't have to make yourself feel this way, that person would make you feel safe and comfortable, not uncomfortable and crappy about yourself. But... I'm quite sure there's some of you out there who can't bear to leave that important someone, right? Well, in this case, you'll really have to trust that person, be patient and just wait for something to happen or change. Have faith in that person, but dun let your hopes be too high though, you have to be prepared of whatever that might happen. And if anything happens, I wan you to know that ITS OKAY! You can cry if you want, dun hide your tears, JUST LET IT ALL OUT! & you have to know that...
"Your not the one who didn't even try, you already did your best! Dun blame yourself for something that you knew somewhere in your heart that it was going to happen! "
Honestly, if she/he really thought you were important, they wouldn't leave no matter what, they would try their best to solve whatever problem there was. And I'm definitely sure, DEFINITELY, that you will meet that someone who will really appreciate you for who you are no matter how weird you are, why waste your efforts on someone who doesn't care instead of just looking right in front of you, there's always been that one person who was there for you whenever you needed it. Its NOT that there was no one there, its just that you need to REALISE that person. Well, so its okay to be afraid of what might happen in the future. Oh and a tip for you now is if your afraid, do the things that you want to do, make sure that if anything happens, YOU! Yourself know that you REGRET NOTHING, make sure that your contented with what you actually could do. BUT BUT BUT! If things worked out with just patience, then I'm really really happy for you~ Some things are like... All you need is time to see what could happen or wad you could do, so don't put so much pressure on yourself. ITS OKAY TO BE AFRAID! It shows that you actually cherish the person. You can't stop what's going to happen sooner or later, just let it happen and let go... Who knows? There might be someone you meet in the future who makes you feel much much much happier and you'll realise that it was the right choice to let go, am i right? Anyways, whatever happens, know that you weren't the one who didn't try and there will be people who will be there for you no matter what happens. SO DON'T FEEL SO CRAPPY ABOUT YOURSELF!
Thats probably what I wanna say, this blog post goes out to my friend who I'll always be there for~ Love ya~ REMEMBER THAT I'M THERE FOR YOU AND YOUR NOT ALONE!!! :D
So... I'm sure some of you are afraid of something that might happen, be it losing someone, the problems that may grow or even 'yourself'. Your afraid to lose that important someone, that someone who you can rely on, the one whose important to you. Your afraid that the person will forget you one day, right? But let me tell you this, if that person really cares about you, you won't have to feel afraid, you wouldn't have to keep doing something to make sure your close to that person. Think about it, if that person really cares for you, you wouldn't have to make yourself feel this way, that person would make you feel safe and comfortable, not uncomfortable and crappy about yourself. But... I'm quite sure there's some of you out there who can't bear to leave that important someone, right? Well, in this case, you'll really have to trust that person, be patient and just wait for something to happen or change. Have faith in that person, but dun let your hopes be too high though, you have to be prepared of whatever that might happen. And if anything happens, I wan you to know that ITS OKAY! You can cry if you want, dun hide your tears, JUST LET IT ALL OUT! & you have to know that...
"Your not the one who didn't even try, you already did your best! Dun blame yourself for something that you knew somewhere in your heart that it was going to happen! "
Honestly, if she/he really thought you were important, they wouldn't leave no matter what, they would try their best to solve whatever problem there was. And I'm definitely sure, DEFINITELY, that you will meet that someone who will really appreciate you for who you are no matter how weird you are, why waste your efforts on someone who doesn't care instead of just looking right in front of you, there's always been that one person who was there for you whenever you needed it. Its NOT that there was no one there, its just that you need to REALISE that person. Well, so its okay to be afraid of what might happen in the future. Oh and a tip for you now is if your afraid, do the things that you want to do, make sure that if anything happens, YOU! Yourself know that you REGRET NOTHING, make sure that your contented with what you actually could do. BUT BUT BUT! If things worked out with just patience, then I'm really really happy for you~ Some things are like... All you need is time to see what could happen or wad you could do, so don't put so much pressure on yourself. ITS OKAY TO BE AFRAID! It shows that you actually cherish the person. You can't stop what's going to happen sooner or later, just let it happen and let go... Who knows? There might be someone you meet in the future who makes you feel much much much happier and you'll realise that it was the right choice to let go, am i right? Anyways, whatever happens, know that you weren't the one who didn't try and there will be people who will be there for you no matter what happens. SO DON'T FEEL SO CRAPPY ABOUT YOURSELF!
Thats probably what I wanna say, this blog post goes out to my friend who I'll always be there for~ Love ya~ REMEMBER THAT I'M THERE FOR YOU AND YOUR NOT ALONE!!! :D
Friday, July 12, 2013
Your Not Alone.
Hey guys, today I'm just gonna share with you some random thoughts I've had. This post is also for anyone who feels like their alone and there's nobody, just nobody that will be there for them.
I'm sure you feel very depressed and just even maybe thought about suicide before at least ONCE in your life. There are many things that everyone has been through that made them have many many many negative thoughts and feelings. You probably felt like SHYT! People treat you like shyt and you just watch them do that without saying a single word or doing a single shyt. You just wonder to yourself "What have I done to actually deserve this?" , "Why do they treat me like this when I've not even done anything to them?". Then you'll start to think that life's unfair and you just can't take it anymore. You start to isolate yourself from the world and think about all the negative things possible. You start to feel like a useless person, being a burden to the people around you and you just wanna run away from this harsh reality... BUT! but but but but but... Do you think that running away is going to help at all? Some people told me this "If everyone's life is unfair, then doesn't that make life fair?" I think that is actually quite true cos as days pass and i get to know more people and their problems, I realised that actually there are many people going through similar problems, your not the only one. Life is the hardest thing to go through but once you truly understand and meet the right people, then that's only the beginning. ;) So I guess the main thing I want you to know is that, YOUR NOT ALONE! I know I'm just some random person saying these things but I believe that no one is alone. There's always that one person that will be there for you no matter what! Even if you really think there's no one in mind now, but maybe that's because that person has not come to your life yet. I really think that if you want to be happy, you have to be patient and understanding. Think about the bright side of things~ Especially for me, I used to be a really negative, pessimistic and paranoid person but thanks to the people I've met, they've played a HUGE PART in changing my life and who I am now is all thanks to THEM! So if any of my friends/family sees this, I want you to know that I love you and without you, I wouldn't be who I am today, so YOUR AWESOME!
Loneliness is probably one of the worst feelings you can ever feel, to feel like your existence is just a nuisance to the world... That its better to just go away and never come back. Well, as time passes, you'll start to realise that there are people who need you, there are people who'll miss you, there are people waiting to meet you so that they can love you... They'll go to you and say "Don't cry, things will be fine, I'll be here for you." or "You'll never have to hide your tears again cos I'll be there to see you let everything out." So just be Patient, who knows what might happen is you just wait a little longer? ;) Don't rush things, you might meet the wrong people, just wait for it to naturally happen~ & remember, YOUR NOT ALONE! So SMILE!
Here's a song that is called "Your not alone" from an anime called "Kaichou Wa Maid Sama".
It no lyrics but just hear it~ I felt so much better after hearing it~
I'm sure you feel very depressed and just even maybe thought about suicide before at least ONCE in your life. There are many things that everyone has been through that made them have many many many negative thoughts and feelings. You probably felt like SHYT! People treat you like shyt and you just watch them do that without saying a single word or doing a single shyt. You just wonder to yourself "What have I done to actually deserve this?" , "Why do they treat me like this when I've not even done anything to them?". Then you'll start to think that life's unfair and you just can't take it anymore. You start to isolate yourself from the world and think about all the negative things possible. You start to feel like a useless person, being a burden to the people around you and you just wanna run away from this harsh reality... BUT! but but but but but... Do you think that running away is going to help at all? Some people told me this "If everyone's life is unfair, then doesn't that make life fair?" I think that is actually quite true cos as days pass and i get to know more people and their problems, I realised that actually there are many people going through similar problems, your not the only one. Life is the hardest thing to go through but once you truly understand and meet the right people, then that's only the beginning. ;) So I guess the main thing I want you to know is that, YOUR NOT ALONE! I know I'm just some random person saying these things but I believe that no one is alone. There's always that one person that will be there for you no matter what! Even if you really think there's no one in mind now, but maybe that's because that person has not come to your life yet. I really think that if you want to be happy, you have to be patient and understanding. Think about the bright side of things~ Especially for me, I used to be a really negative, pessimistic and paranoid person but thanks to the people I've met, they've played a HUGE PART in changing my life and who I am now is all thanks to THEM! So if any of my friends/family sees this, I want you to know that I love you and without you, I wouldn't be who I am today, so YOUR AWESOME!
Loneliness is probably one of the worst feelings you can ever feel, to feel like your existence is just a nuisance to the world... That its better to just go away and never come back. Well, as time passes, you'll start to realise that there are people who need you, there are people who'll miss you, there are people waiting to meet you so that they can love you... They'll go to you and say "Don't cry, things will be fine, I'll be here for you." or "You'll never have to hide your tears again cos I'll be there to see you let everything out." So just be Patient, who knows what might happen is you just wait a little longer? ;) Don't rush things, you might meet the wrong people, just wait for it to naturally happen~ & remember, YOUR NOT ALONE! So SMILE!
Here's a song that is called "Your not alone" from an anime called "Kaichou Wa Maid Sama".
It no lyrics but just hear it~ I felt so much better after hearing it~
Monday, May 27, 2013
SUNGHA JUNG
Hey guys, its been a long long long time since I posted and just wanna share my experience of going to Sungha Jung's concert. For those of you who don't know who Sungha Jung is, he is a GUITAR PRODIGY!!! He has mad guitar skills and sometimes I even wonder if his fingers have BONES?! He is actually one of my inspirations cos everytime when I feel like my guitar skills can't make it or I just feel inferior or something. Somehow hearing his guitar and seeing how he always plays it with such a happy expression~ He really looks like he enjoys himself while playing the guitar even though its so hard! Maybe to me but to him it might be easy actually. Oh and here are some Sungha Jung videos that I love~
So Sick by Sungha Jung
plus one of his ORIGINAL SONG which is called Nostalgia~
Honestly, I may not know all his songs but out of all the songs I've listened to from Sungha Jung, I've never been bored for even a single second. Cos every moment has that special melody and tune that you sort of fall in love with, i can't describe the feeling but its just something that really makes you... FEEL~ or maybe I could be weird saying all of this but its just how I think about Sungha Jung when he plays his guitar. I can't say that I'm his HUGE FAN or anything but I can definitely say his my inspiration for whenever i feel down or sad about my guitar skills though. I'm sure you other Sungha Jung fans feel that whenever you listen to his songs, you feel a sense of encouragement to strive to do better and hope that one day you'll be able to play as good as him. At least that's how I feel whenever I listen to his songs, I also like to hear his playing when I'm sad cos it sorta cheers me up or sometimes even make me reflect a little. It's so strange how his songs can actually make me feel so much, his music doesn't seem to need lyrics cos what he plays technically 'SAYS IT ALL'! Okay... shall not be so naggy anymore so I hope you enjoyed seeing his videos and maybe even inspired to start learning guitar? ;D
So Sick by Sungha Jung
plus one of his ORIGINAL SONG which is called Nostalgia~
Honestly, I may not know all his songs but out of all the songs I've listened to from Sungha Jung, I've never been bored for even a single second. Cos every moment has that special melody and tune that you sort of fall in love with, i can't describe the feeling but its just something that really makes you... FEEL~ or maybe I could be weird saying all of this but its just how I think about Sungha Jung when he plays his guitar. I can't say that I'm his HUGE FAN or anything but I can definitely say his my inspiration for whenever i feel down or sad about my guitar skills though. I'm sure you other Sungha Jung fans feel that whenever you listen to his songs, you feel a sense of encouragement to strive to do better and hope that one day you'll be able to play as good as him. At least that's how I feel whenever I listen to his songs, I also like to hear his playing when I'm sad cos it sorta cheers me up or sometimes even make me reflect a little. It's so strange how his songs can actually make me feel so much, his music doesn't seem to need lyrics cos what he plays technically 'SAYS IT ALL'! Okay... shall not be so naggy anymore so I hope you enjoyed seeing his videos and maybe even inspired to start learning guitar? ;D
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Emotions~
Hey guys~ For this blog post I just wanna talk about how life or humans are... or at least my view of it.
I always wonder...
Why do people shed tears when they cry?
Why do people smile when their happy?
Why do people shout when their angry?
These emotions that humans have can be so annoying yet so wonderful...? Sometimes feelings could really be a nuisance but on the long run, I believe that its great to have feelings. It's great to feel all these different kinds of feelings at different points in your life! Can you even imagine a life without feelings? We would all be like robots, life would not be as interesting as it already is! You might be wondering why I'm talking about this all of a sudden... Well, I guess it's because as I grow older and experience more and more things, I start to realize what is actually important. I realized that feelings are indescribable! I believe that it's such an amazing thing that just cant be put in words. We can feel happy, sad, angry, frustrated, confused and most importantly love. I think that it's because of these feelings that makes life what it is! I never realized how important emotions could be, even though it can actually cause harm when your angry or something. But when you really think about it, don't you just find it unique? I really have no idea how to explain but I just want to share about it.
I always wonder...
Why do people shed tears when they cry?
Why do people smile when their happy?
Why do people shout when their angry?
These emotions that humans have can be so annoying yet so wonderful...? Sometimes feelings could really be a nuisance but on the long run, I believe that its great to have feelings. It's great to feel all these different kinds of feelings at different points in your life! Can you even imagine a life without feelings? We would all be like robots, life would not be as interesting as it already is! You might be wondering why I'm talking about this all of a sudden... Well, I guess it's because as I grow older and experience more and more things, I start to realize what is actually important. I realized that feelings are indescribable! I believe that it's such an amazing thing that just cant be put in words. We can feel happy, sad, angry, frustrated, confused and most importantly love. I think that it's because of these feelings that makes life what it is! I never realized how important emotions could be, even though it can actually cause harm when your angry or something. But when you really think about it, don't you just find it unique? I really have no idea how to explain but I just want to share about it.
Saturday, February 23, 2013
First post of 2013!!!
OMG!!! I can't believe I haven't posted anything at all for the Year 2013!!! It's been a long long looooooooooooong time since I posted which was last year... Anyways, I really have no idea of what to post so I guess I'll just talk about random things.
Random thing number 1:
Friendships...
I have friends that are just so hard to endure not talking back to them but thank God I also have friends that can really be a life saver just by talking! :D
Do you have friends that just piss you off or are over the limit sometimes? Sometimes I just think like are friends suppose to treat you like this? Then I'll think, are they even worth keeping? I really hate myself for thinking this way but in the end I always think that I should keep any friendships that I have no matter how bad they can be. I guess its because I always believe that if everyone unfriends them for their personality then who'll be there for them to change their personality and make them realise what they had been doing all this time? Friends are very very VERY important to me and I never ever wanna give up on any friend, I almost hope that even if the possibility of them changing is 0%... I still wanna hope that they'll change for the better, so even is it seems impossible, I will still definitely try to change them. So I guess if you ever have those kind of friends, instead of immediately giving up on them, think twice and think in their perspective. If you were those kind of friends, how would you treat them?
Well, I guess thats all I wanna say about and I hope that no matter what problems you may have with your friends, it can always be solved. GOOD LUCK!!! GAMBATE!!! JIAYOUSSS!!! :D
Random thing number 1:
Friendships...
I have friends that are just so hard to endure not talking back to them but thank God I also have friends that can really be a life saver just by talking! :D
Do you have friends that just piss you off or are over the limit sometimes? Sometimes I just think like are friends suppose to treat you like this? Then I'll think, are they even worth keeping? I really hate myself for thinking this way but in the end I always think that I should keep any friendships that I have no matter how bad they can be. I guess its because I always believe that if everyone unfriends them for their personality then who'll be there for them to change their personality and make them realise what they had been doing all this time? Friends are very very VERY important to me and I never ever wanna give up on any friend, I almost hope that even if the possibility of them changing is 0%... I still wanna hope that they'll change for the better, so even is it seems impossible, I will still definitely try to change them. So I guess if you ever have those kind of friends, instead of immediately giving up on them, think twice and think in their perspective. If you were those kind of friends, how would you treat them?
Well, I guess thats all I wanna say about and I hope that no matter what problems you may have with your friends, it can always be solved. GOOD LUCK!!! GAMBATE!!! JIAYOUSSS!!! :D
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